What to say? What to do? What to plan for?
These are questions that in some way or form I think every day. I do not know if it is just me or if this a common condition of people everywhere. Maybe I just worry too much or over-contemplate things, but I try and figure out what is the difference between me and someone how makes a success out of their life. I know what it is and I have admitted it to myself, but I do not know if I can change it. It is work and risk.
Every success story I have ever read about is grounded in long hours and the risking of all financial holdings. I do not have that many financial holdings to risk but with the way I worry about money now and the horrible way I control my current finances I would either go immediately bankrupt or die of a stress-induced ulcer.
So I do not have the ambition or means to risk a large financial investment into any project in my life. In fact my 2 most pressing concerns monetarily is to find a place I can afford on my own, which I will search for after the winter is over, and to get myself a new car. The new car plan will take a bit of work as I want to buy a NEW car and that means I need to make sure I will be able to afford it. I know I will get at least a 5 year loan and will more likely be looking at a 7-10 year loan at my current pay. In fact just to afford a 20,000 car in a 10 year loan I need to increase my income by a lot.
Right now I make 22,880 a year. I plan on increasing that to 27,000 by the end of next month. But that is still not enough and is a horribly low amount to make. I want to reach the 35,000 by next summer and to do that I need to get a second job or move. There are not a lot of big money opportunities in this valley. My friend told me to move out here and I would easily find work. That I did but watched my cost of living go up by 1/3 and my pay go down as much.
The issue is I am not even sure of what I need to do to find more work in the valley. Everyone that I work with at the front desk has a second job. I have worked second jobs in the past. I worked as manager for a Subway while working at Strouds (a bed and bath store). I have worked at Black Bear Casino while going to school, and then later added a 20 hour a week job to it. After working 60 hours a week and doing 30 hours of school for 3 months straight with no days off I told myself that I would not work 2 jobs again. It is a horrible existence to live through. You have absolutely no time to yourself and I was going crazy by the time I quit my full time job.
I have my AAS in networking and I did not spend 2 years in school giving them 27,000 dollars just so I can work some menial puissant job that pays such crap that I have to get a second job working for dick.
So this Thursday I get paid and I will try and recovery some of the debt I have incurred in the move here and get my ad in the paper. I know I have been saying I am going to get my ad in the paper since I started this blog 3 weeks ago but if I keep saying it, it will reinforce my conviction to get it done.
When I talked to my parents today about some of the things I detailed above (happy anniversary Mom and Dad) they were very supportive of my plans and goals. One thing I know my Dad would not be supportive of, is the fact that I want to buy a Mini-Cooper as the car to replace my current piece of shit. My Dad took one look at it and told me it would be horribly expensive to upkeep it. Thing is, if I am buying it new the upkeep can not be any more than what I have had to do to my Neon. I paid 5000 dollars for it 3 and a ½ years ago and since then I think I have put about 5000 dollars in maintenance and repair into it. Granted one repair, getting a new front end, is because I was driving when I had the flu and ran into a concrete pillar on my way to work, but that only makes up about 1600 of my 5 grand. Things like replacing the computer, changing all the air injection sensors, replacing the spark plugs and wire harness, new tires, new rotors all the way around, and my 3,000 mile oil changes (which my car is always a quart low by then because it burns oil) was all because it is really a lemon of a car.
And I know my car is starting to die now. It misfires every so often when I am accelerating or decelerating. I think it is the change in RPM’s that cause it. And I think it is back to the problem of my air sensors being messed up. In addition to that my cruise control no longer works properly, my alternator belt squeals, my doors squeak, the 2 front speakers no longer play, and I still need to have the timing belt changed as that was supposed to be done at 90,000 miles and I am at 102,000. But the timing belt itself is a 600-800 dollar job because they have to remove the engine completely because the belt is wrapped around one of the engine mounts.
So how am I going to fix these issues in my life? Good question. To fix them it is required that I give myself a kick in the ass and get myself out there. First the ad. That I will get into the paper and let ride a week. Then if I do not have any response in that time (and I am not expecting any but am hoping) I will look for help. I plan on going to Colorado’s Workforce, which is near my house in Edwards, and ask them if they have any help to give or any advice to offer.
I also hope this helps inspire and jump-start my writing habits. I work on my writing only 1 day out of the week as it is now. I need to set myself baby-steps and schedule myself 2 days a week to write. From there I can expand it.
These are questions that in some way or form I think every day. I do not know if it is just me or if this a common condition of people everywhere. Maybe I just worry too much or over-contemplate things, but I try and figure out what is the difference between me and someone how makes a success out of their life. I know what it is and I have admitted it to myself, but I do not know if I can change it. It is work and risk.
Every success story I have ever read about is grounded in long hours and the risking of all financial holdings. I do not have that many financial holdings to risk but with the way I worry about money now and the horrible way I control my current finances I would either go immediately bankrupt or die of a stress-induced ulcer.
So I do not have the ambition or means to risk a large financial investment into any project in my life. In fact my 2 most pressing concerns monetarily is to find a place I can afford on my own, which I will search for after the winter is over, and to get myself a new car. The new car plan will take a bit of work as I want to buy a NEW car and that means I need to make sure I will be able to afford it. I know I will get at least a 5 year loan and will more likely be looking at a 7-10 year loan at my current pay. In fact just to afford a 20,000 car in a 10 year loan I need to increase my income by a lot.
Right now I make 22,880 a year. I plan on increasing that to 27,000 by the end of next month. But that is still not enough and is a horribly low amount to make. I want to reach the 35,000 by next summer and to do that I need to get a second job or move. There are not a lot of big money opportunities in this valley. My friend told me to move out here and I would easily find work. That I did but watched my cost of living go up by 1/3 and my pay go down as much.
The issue is I am not even sure of what I need to do to find more work in the valley. Everyone that I work with at the front desk has a second job. I have worked second jobs in the past. I worked as manager for a Subway while working at Strouds (a bed and bath store). I have worked at Black Bear Casino while going to school, and then later added a 20 hour a week job to it. After working 60 hours a week and doing 30 hours of school for 3 months straight with no days off I told myself that I would not work 2 jobs again. It is a horrible existence to live through. You have absolutely no time to yourself and I was going crazy by the time I quit my full time job.
I have my AAS in networking and I did not spend 2 years in school giving them 27,000 dollars just so I can work some menial puissant job that pays such crap that I have to get a second job working for dick.
So this Thursday I get paid and I will try and recovery some of the debt I have incurred in the move here and get my ad in the paper. I know I have been saying I am going to get my ad in the paper since I started this blog 3 weeks ago but if I keep saying it, it will reinforce my conviction to get it done.
When I talked to my parents today about some of the things I detailed above (happy anniversary Mom and Dad) they were very supportive of my plans and goals. One thing I know my Dad would not be supportive of, is the fact that I want to buy a Mini-Cooper as the car to replace my current piece of shit. My Dad took one look at it and told me it would be horribly expensive to upkeep it. Thing is, if I am buying it new the upkeep can not be any more than what I have had to do to my Neon. I paid 5000 dollars for it 3 and a ½ years ago and since then I think I have put about 5000 dollars in maintenance and repair into it. Granted one repair, getting a new front end, is because I was driving when I had the flu and ran into a concrete pillar on my way to work, but that only makes up about 1600 of my 5 grand. Things like replacing the computer, changing all the air injection sensors, replacing the spark plugs and wire harness, new tires, new rotors all the way around, and my 3,000 mile oil changes (which my car is always a quart low by then because it burns oil) was all because it is really a lemon of a car.
And I know my car is starting to die now. It misfires every so often when I am accelerating or decelerating. I think it is the change in RPM’s that cause it. And I think it is back to the problem of my air sensors being messed up. In addition to that my cruise control no longer works properly, my alternator belt squeals, my doors squeak, the 2 front speakers no longer play, and I still need to have the timing belt changed as that was supposed to be done at 90,000 miles and I am at 102,000. But the timing belt itself is a 600-800 dollar job because they have to remove the engine completely because the belt is wrapped around one of the engine mounts.
So how am I going to fix these issues in my life? Good question. To fix them it is required that I give myself a kick in the ass and get myself out there. First the ad. That I will get into the paper and let ride a week. Then if I do not have any response in that time (and I am not expecting any but am hoping) I will look for help. I plan on going to Colorado’s Workforce, which is near my house in Edwards, and ask them if they have any help to give or any advice to offer.
I also hope this helps inspire and jump-start my writing habits. I work on my writing only 1 day out of the week as it is now. I need to set myself baby-steps and schedule myself 2 days a week to write. From there I can expand it.
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