Vail Life

Cool, I have gotten this thing under way. It sucks having to re-learn HTML though. I have to go to other sites to even look up the most simple of code. Such as how to link an E-mail address to the signatures nickname on these posts. Thankfully I had just enough training to be dangerous.

I put in the link and thought to myself, "Now make sure I know exactly what I added in case it completely hoses the site so that I can remove it if I forgot some thing."

Nothing worse than when you are setting up a site and miss an ending bracket and cause your entire page to shit the bed. Hopefully I will be able to spend more time on this than some of the other projects I have started and never finished.

The other thing I am debating is starting my Front Desk Chronicles as a blogger. Not sure if I want to hold myself responsible for two sites. I will think about it more tomorrow. Some of the Front Desk Chronicles really need to be shared.

I have changed the name from Thoughts and Ramblings (the original title as I was starting this) to Vail Life. Vail, CO is where I have recently moved to and the way of living is completely different from what I was used to in Minnesota. As a personal growing/learning experience in writing I started documenting the strangeness that is this town. There are some really weird things here that the locals think are normal. I have traveled all over this country and have spent 4 months touring Eastern and Western Europe and real people do not live like they do here. I will go into that some more some day. What I would like to do is set up a 3-panel comic detailing the weirdness that is Vail life.

But I changed the title of this blog to Vail Life because I recently setup that address for anonymity in both this and my Vail Life comic. Some of the things I talk about are mean and hurtful because I feel I have been mistreated by either friends, co-workers, or people I know. I am basically a nice guy and I never say anything to someone's face or even to friends behind their back. Doing this blog is something I have not done since 9th grade oh so many years ago. Back then I made the mistake of showing my closest friend the journal I was keeping. It caused nothing but hurt feelings and he ended up getting it into the hands of a girl he was dating and she ... Well lets just say that it did not go over well and some feelings were hurt.

I want to keep this anonymous and public for a number of different reasons. One I think it is therapeutic to get issues like this off my chest and if one person reads this and thinks, "Yeah I see where this guy is coming from and yeah that was pretty bad how he was treated." Then I will feel better knowing I am not alone. And for the most part I am guessing that I am deluding myself into thinking that but Hey that is all right to.

I am keeping this anonymous for the reason I described above. I really don't want to hurt anyone's feelings but I want to bitch to someone.

So if you guys have any questions, comments, or ideas you would like me to extrapolate on further drop me an e-mail. Hmm, Lets see if I can make the e-mail link sticky on the top of this page.

Oh and if you send me an e-mail assume I will answer in this blog for everyone to see unless you specifically state that you do not want me to share your thoughts.

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Gah spending more money on my money pit of a PC. I will be moving out of my hole of a home filled with bad karma into hopefully a much more appropriate setting. Hmm, appropriate as a word doesn’t fit there. It should read a much more conducive setting to actually keep my act in order and get motivated. The place I stay now is “Stoner Central” with a Husband/Wife combination who smoke themselves stupid and then sleep all day on the couch in the living room. It will feel good when I will not have to keep my door closed so I do not have to smell the constant smell of weed in the house.

Out of boredom I keep ICQ open when I work and I have it set to Free for Chat. I do so, so that possibly I could find someone to chat with and keep me company at night. I use ICQ and don’t visit the chat rooms because my Nazi company has locked down any appletes and ports needed for chat programs. But In ICQ I am able to configure the ports so that I bypass the firewall.

So I get this message on my ICQ program tonight.

(2:17 AM) : Hi! So have you found your path all ready?

This is in response to my profile she read which reads, “About - Just trying to find my path in this wide world.”

Great, I think. I finally found someone who wants to chat and does not want to send me to jenny88 at some gay ass pay-for-some-lame-dream-of-getting-a-date site. If I want a date is not going to be from some spam site. There has to be some pretty lonely and desperate people out there for those sites to stay in business. Just from people checking out their sites for curiosity, which I have, has to eat up their bandwidth. Especially people like me who do not purchase anything, run pop-up-stopper to block their lame pop-ups, and would not click on their advertisement even if I saw it.

So back to my rambling story. So this girl messages me. I return the following lines.

Thom (2:21 AM) : It is a constant search. And I get lost quite often. But I think I am heading in the right direction.

Thom (2:21 AM) : So are you someplace it is daytime or are you a night person like me?

Well it is 3:27 as I write this sentence. The thing I find myself thinking is why did she not reply back? She is still online, I can see that much through the program. Why would someone initiate a conversation and then not reply back to my response? I do not think I said anything out order in the response. And I do not believe it was my profile because she obviously read that before sending the message to me.

Oh and I hate this mouse. I have to clean it every night cause it keeps skipping. And it does not have a wheel on it to scroll with. What a pain.

I am thinking that I want to get this out on the net just to say it is there (and that way I can call it a blog instead of some pansy diary). I am heading to blogger right now to see what it takes to set up a personal site. Then someday when I am rich and famous and have my own site I will reprint this there.

Blogger

Posted by Coign at 4:12 AM | Permalink | Comments

Bah ½ an hour until my relief comes in. How many people will have I have to tell, “The restaurant opens at 6:30 a.m. and is at the top of the stairs.”? I will have to put something about that into a Front Desk Chronicles page I have.

I am also looking at different blogger setups. I really need to get myself a virtual server or a static IP and my own setup. I would like to use my own design and not be limited by other plug and play sites but getting software to run my own site may be problematical. I will most likely look for a server host domain and purchase space to host my site on a virtual server so I can develop what I want and pay them for hosting. Maybe tomorrow night I will do some searching.

web host

Posted by Coign at 7:30 AM | Permalink | Comments

Well I am thinking that someday this may make it into a type of Blog. I really need to find some web space out there someday. I am reading through the paper right now. Dog Agility classes? What the hell is that?

Posted by Coign at 5:43 AM | Permalink | Comments

Hmm, I thought I would start this just to get some ideas down into writing to help me think better. Right now life is pretty good for me. I have a job that I do not hate to go to, I am moving into a new better place in less than 24 hours, I have plans to increase my income, and the few friends I have here are really good friends.

So I am unsure to why I have woke up the last few days feeling depressed. I think it mostly stems from my worries on money. I have like an extra 150 dollars in my checking above what I need to survive and payday is not far away, but outstanding debt, upcoming bills, and toys/car/a home that I want to buy always makes me feel like I am in over my head. Even though my finances are fairly secure the worry I feel over them really brings my mood down. I hate thinking about money period. I was thinking I need to get married just so I can have someone else balance a checkbook for me.

Something I have tried many times in the past, but it never lasts, is running a financial plan or spreadsheet detailing what my income is and where I will spend my money. That seems to make me more depressed as I fail to meet goals I set for myself due to capricious spending. I am an impulse buyer and I always will be. I have learned to recognize that in myself, and so always keep that “extra 150” dollars just so I can cover my impulse buys. It makes me feel happy when I receive the goods, and I enjoy the feeling of buying. I am unsure of if that is worth the worry I later get about not having that blanket of security. Thing is I do not think it would be possible for me to change that side of my spending habits without outside influence.

A couple of worries and issues that may help me straighten out some priorities.

Getting my ad in the paper.
Moving and finding the time for it.
Getting more income. (Related to the ad in the paper thing.)
Getting my parents the right modem and hopefully recouping some of the loss in cash I spent on that frickin modem.
Finding a place that me and my friends can play D&D.
Start writing articles for D&D so that I can point to a creative outlet in my life.
Try meeting new people. (Speaking of which lets look at the paper right now and see if it holds anything to help me.)

Bah, screw meeting new people, time to go find Dave Barry’s articles and laugh myself into a better mood.

Dave Barry

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