Vail Life

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Fuck I hate computers.

I try to delete off some fucked up dialer that got installed on my machine.

Yeah fuck you. I do know better. Still doesn't make me smart enough to avoid downloading warez and testing them.

So the dialer isn't really the problem. It is my computer. It seems anytime I try to delete a shortcut from either my Internet Explorer or my Start menu it locks up that program. With IE it isn't so bad, I kill the program and I am going again.

If I delete a shortcut from the Start menu though it locks up my whole fucking system. Then it happens to be 90+ degrees in my room and making me irritable.

Oh and I have been drinking since Noon and a little tipsy to.

So I turn my machine off to "fix" it.

Then the son-of-a-bitch doesn't come back up.

Mother-fucker!!!

I am at first calm. Try the power button again. Nothing.

OK, breath deep. Turn off the switch at the power supply. Wait 30 seconds. I count. 1, 2, 3, 4, ... 26, 27, 28, 29, 30.

Still nothing.

Cock bitch whore shit down your mamma's throat!!!

(P.S. no filter on this page.)

At this point I get pissed. The chair goes flying across the room.

I crawl under my desk and try turning off the power strip. Nothing.

I punch the leg of my desk.

(Probably not a good idea since I could possibly bring it down on me.)

I pull the machine around so I can see the box. I assume it is a heat issue since I hate this valley with a passion for destroying my last machine due to heat.

I know I have to let it cool. I open up the side of the case and I feel the RAM, the hard drives, the power supply, and then I grab the heat sink on the processor. Nothing is really hot. (Or maybe I am just really drunk.)

Fuck you, you cocking-sucking bitch. I would rape you if I could.

(Now rape is never a funny subject unless you are talking about sheep or inanimate objects. I just have to clear that up.)

So I decide that I will do something else to take it off my mind.

I see a poster on my floor that had fallen down about 3 weeks ago. Perfect I will hang that while I wait for my PC to cool.

So I get the hammer and nails. Always a fun combination when you have been drinking.

So I come back with those and my chair is sitting on the poster. Queue flying chair.

I pick up the poster and it is hooked on a box holding my old wood-burning set. Queue flying wood-burner and misc. scraps of wood.

I set up the poster to hang it. Queue one nail being sunk to the head in my wall.

By this time I have destroyed my room enough that I am calming down a bit. I sink the next nail with more control and hang my poster.

Deep breath.

Hit the power on my PC.

Finally it starts.

Then I jump on here and post my story.

And have another beer. Fuck why is my chair in three pieces?

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Quick thought. Why do I eat lunch?

Every time I go to work I get all wired on coffee and am all energetic to do work and get stuff done. Then each afternoon I eat lunch and I get all sleepy and lazy.

Now I have to kill 3 hours trying to motivate when all I want to do is go home and sleep.

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Friday. Early in the evening I headed over to the tattoo shop and with IdFungus and Watcher we watched Mike Nelson from MST3K rip on the movie Roadhouse. You can download his audio track making fun of the movie here for only $1.99.

RiffTrax.com

Later that night, I was bored with my MMORPG worlds and wanted something more mindless. I installed Diablo II again and spent the rest of the night running around hacking and slashing at mindless things. The game is a complete time killer and I spent all Friday night drinking and playing.

Saturday. Got up and threw on shorts. I think that was about as much activity as I did this day. I played a lot of Diablo.

About 6 PM I don't know what came over me but all of a sudden I wanted Kool-Aid. Unfortunately my pitcher was dirty. I didn't want to make a sink of dishwater for just one pitcher so I did all my dirty dishes. For some reason I felt like a junkie doing some strange compulsive behavior like cleaning the house from top to bottom because I had a desire to lie down on the floor. It was weird while it was happening and weird when I look back on that feeling. And I was not even drinking.

That evening a friend called me and asked me to go floating with friends down a river up at State Bridge with them at 9:30 AM. I agreed as I knew I would not leave the house unless I found some activity to get out. I had everything I needed to go except an inner tube to float on. My friend told me that he had gotten some cheap ones at City Market. I told him I would wake up at 7 AM and try and find one.

Spent the rest of the night drinking and playing Diablo.

Sunday. Up at 7 AM. I'm going to be floating down a river so bypassed the morning shower. Got all my gear together. Swimsuit, extra socks, towel, football, my traveling first-aid supplies. I have seen enough people injured when I have not been in an urban area that when I plan outings I now always plan on having my first-aid available.

Next to go shopping; first City Market. They were out of the inner tubes that he had bought. I could see the empty space they once sat in.

Next I checked Wal-Mart. They did not have any inner tubes, just floating lounge chairs. I needed something I would be able to steer down a river so that was a no go. On a side note; there is NOBODY up in Avon at 7:30 AM on a Sunday. Wal-Mart was dead.

I did pickup a new camp knife, duct tape, rope, and some thinner rope. The thin rope was so I could lace a two-liter bottle of mixed drink to my tube. The thick was in case I needed to tie off to anything. The knife was to cut the rope. And the duct tape was because you can always use duct tape.

Next I headed to Sports Authority. They didn't open until 10 AM and my friends wanted to leave by 9:30. Well it was 8 AM so I decided to check the City Market in Vail.

City Market in Vail is built nothing like the one in Avon. All the aisles are placed at a 45 degree from the walls until you reach the back half of the building and realize that the walls themselves are not 90 degree corners. Makes for a very confusing store layout. Nothing like getting lost inside a grocery store. But in the end they had nothing. They did not even have the summer display the other City Market had so would not have even stocked them.

Thankfully the Sports Authority was open at 8 AM but they told me they sold out of river worthy inner-tubes in the first week of summer.

Next on the way back to Avon I swing by NAPA. I decide instead of some cheap made "produced" inner tube I would get the durable real thing. Unfortunately NAPA didn't open until 9 AM and it was only 8:45 AM.

At that point I headed home to call them at 9 AM and ask them if they even had inner tubes to sell. Then at 8:50 AM my friend Jeremy called to let me know they were going to cancel because they saw clouds down valley. They didn't want to go floating if it was cloudy out. He said instead he would just sit in and play computer games that day.

I told him that was too bad and that I would be trying to see a movie that afternoon and afterwards possibly we could get together for a grilling session. He said he would skip the movie but to call him if I decided to grill and we will explore that possibility that afternoon.

Side note: It was bright sunny and 90 degrees all day. Oh well, maybe next time.

So Sunday was again a bust. I took a shower and started play on the computer again. About 3 PM I just got tired of doing nothing. I decided there are better things to do with my time. I had two projects at work I wanted to work on. First I am building furniture for my Stikfas to use in the comic and second I am working on setting up a web server.

I brought back home passwords I needed for server access and my construction materials for my Stikfas. I did get a couch built while watching old episodes of the original 50's Superman. I definitely felt like I accomplished something worthwhile in the end and I hope I am more motivated to to continue my work on projects next weekend.

Later that evening it was the usual Sunday night routine. Go to IdFugus's and watch Entourage and the final episode of Tourgasm.

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I forgot to mention in my Weekend Update that I had my Image Not Found tattoo worked on and posted pics of it on Inked Nation. You can find them under my profile here.

Coign

I was in Denver yesterday for a full day event with no sleep the night before. It was a long day. Then I came home and did our D&D night. After I had to go into work last night at Midnight and worked until 2:45 AM in the morning replacing out a hub to hopefully improve our network performance. In the end I had about 3 hours of sleep, got up at 5:30 AM and was up until about 3 AM that night. Almost 24 hours of up time.

Now I am going to leave work an hour early and try and get some sleep. See you tomorrow for the comic.

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Weekend Update

Did a whole lot of nothing. Got my Image Not Found tattoo retouched Friday night, installed Diablo II again on my PC Saturday, Went to a BBQ Saturday afternoon at Justin's house. Beyond that did some shopping and cleaning and slept a bunch.

I have trivia tonight although I will probably ditch out early as I have to be up at 5 AM tomorrow for a seminar in Denver tomorrow.

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Quick update, been working on a "secret" project for some friends. I finally got the index page changed over from the default setup. Now I am trying to learn MySQL so I can setup a database to make a forum on it.

Not a whole lot happened this week. Did trivia night but I have been feeling a little out of it for a while now. I am guessing it is the just the come down from my relationship. If you don't date for two years, date for seven months, and then end it, I guess it would be natural to wonder if you will ever get back into a serious relationship. Of course I never seem to be able to interpret my own feelings so I am not really sure how I feel.

I compose my blogs and comic write-ups in a notepad. Then I spell check it and post it to the net. I bring this up because below this I have the line "Old man in a young man's world." This is a thought that came to me about a week ago and I am still pondering on what to write about on this subject. Of course with my track record it may never get written. But it sums up a key factor in my feeling down lately.

But I am working on the comic as I write this so I will hurry up and do Monday's and get these posted.

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The Weekend Update

I hung out with Jen and Chandra on Friday night. Nothing exciting there.

On Sunday I was called by Kat and picked her up because someone slashed one of her tires the night before when she left it at the bar. I don't know who she has for enemies because I don't dig into anyone's past so I can not speculate on if it was intentional or not.

Then last night I saw Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest. What is it with movies not having endings this year? It is like every movie I have seen is a build up for the next one. Well at least I can see Clerks II this summer and know that I am not expecting an ending to that one.

So my review of Pirates, rent it. The kraken is pretty cool on the big screen but not really worth the nine bucks. The only reason I do not totally regret seeing it was because I got to hang with friends while doing so.

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Independence Day

Yeah I would say it was that. I saw the fireworks here in Avon on Monday night and as always they were good.



Then on the 4th I cruised over to a BBQ at Justin's house. There my ex-girlfriend Kat joined us. She had called me and made sure it was ok for her to come and I happily welcomed her. We hung out and it was fun.

Then later that night we had the inevitable "post-breakup" talk about why our relationship didn’t work out. She is feeling down because her and her new boyfriend are going through some issues and she was a little upset that I may be dating Chandra. Like I told her earlier and posted on Monday, no, Chandra and I are not dating. We hang out a lot but we are just friends. Chandra screams whenever I approach closer then 12 inches to her.

To sum up my conversation with Kat it went something like this.

"How can you date Chandra? She is to Young!"

"I'm not dating her. And even if I was dating her I don't think our ages matter. You just react differently when around someone that young and understand that they are still learning about the real world."

"God I'm so jealous that you would pick some flighty little young thing."

"You have been dating some guy for three weeks and you are upset you saw me with Chandra when you were driving around in his truck?"

"Yeah but he is a psycho asshole."

"Ahh so it is ok for you to date a psycho asshole but not for me to date a younger girl?"

"I just miss you so much. Why did we break up?"

"You were in love with me; I wasn't in love with you. I enjoyed spending every minute with you but I don't lie about my feelings."

"I think I am more in love with the idea of you, then you. I kept expecting to find this social person inside of you I could bring out. Now I know you are social just not the way I expected."

"I don't hide who I am. I enjoy spending time by myself and when others ask me out I enjoy spending time with others."

"I just expected more. After getting to know you, you are what you see. There isn't any real depth to you."

"Like I said, I don't hide anything. If that makes me shallow then so be it."




So to sum it up in one sentence our conversation went from "I'm jealous, I love you, I hate you" all in about an hour.

By this time I was ready to end this conversation. I drove Kat home and talked to Jen for about an hour after that. Pretty crazy night but it got Kat venting and I think we will be better friends if we don't leave any "unspoken" tensions between us.

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Hmm this weekend.

I saw Superman Returns. I will tell everyone they have to go see it. I will not see it in theater again though. It is Superman, it is Lex Luthor, but its storyline falls a little flat. I left the theater wanting more. It just feels like there was no ending for it.

The rest of the weekend I was in lazy mode. It was great. I slept a lot.

And just to get this down, my ex-girlfriend asked me if I was now dating Chandra. No I'm not and will not date Chandra. Two reasons. One, she is leaving at the end of July or early August. Two, like she said, our views are really far apart. I am a pessimist that puts a good face on life; she is an optimist that puts a bad face on life.

Take for example our conversation about her current job. Lately people have been mean to her at work. She sees changes that would make the front desk more efficient and the supervisors tell her to mind her own business and not tell them how to do their job. Now she is already planning on leaving but it is important for her to reach her one year anniversary that comes up in three weeks.

I had a few points that I related to her. First, Front Desk is a low level entry job. Working Front Desk at a hotel is like slinging burgers at a fast food joint. The only benefit is you don't smell like ass when you are done. Trying to make changes at a place of business that doesn't matter is a waste of resources.

Another subject is that anniversaries mean nothing in the job world. I was worked at CP Internet for four years and ten months. Two months before I would have hit five years and gotten my crystal desk trophy for being there five years I got laid off. Before CP Internet my longest job was about a year long.

Anniversaries mean nothing, when you get your annual review does. But if you are planning on leaving a job, do it sooner then later. One of the things I learned about getting laid off after five years of time put into a job is, always have your resume ready to go. No one is immune to the downsize monster.

I enjoy my life and appreciate each day. But I know it could end at any time and I prepare myself for that emotionally if not physically. She is the opposite. She views the world through these rose colored glasses and is devastated when it doesn't work out like she thinks it should. I am sure a lot of it is due to our age difference. I have become old and cynical in my 10 years of difference between me and her.

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