Drunken blogging
This is the blog you write after you may have had one too many and you get a little maudlin.
My Season Three Girlfriend.
I have had a few girlfriends in the four years I have lived here. I have had two that we actually acknowledged we were "boyfriend and girlfriend" since moving here. That is not a lot.
Every so often you meet a girl that is sexy, cool, and fun to hang around. But you have a girlfriend and she has a boyfriend. Then one of you break up and you look at the other in a more romantic light knowing it cannot work. Then you find someone new and the other is single. Once again it doesn't work out.
Then finally in season three of the series you both find yourself single. Yet the match isn't quite there yet.
Yes I watch too much TV and read too many stories where the guy gets the girl and then love each other ever after. I have become much more cynical and realize the world doesn't work like that. It still doesn't help me from keeping on hoping I will meet that girl.
I have had nights like that and it makes me sad when I go home. I feel a connection to someone and when I get home I realize it is all in my mind and I make too big of a deal out of a friendship. There are people I hang out that I would love to see a friendship turn into a relationship and find out if they are at last the person I have been looking for my whole life. But time and time again I find out we are best friends, not a romantic pairing.
It is hard and even at age 31 I find myself still in the same emotional turmoil as when I was 16. Is that an indicator that I have never grown up? And if growing up to "settle" for someone means the loss of fun and spontaneity that I will sometimes have is it worth it?
I do not feel grown up. I play and I play hard. Does growing up and settling down mean an end to all play? Is that why I sabotage my own relationships?
Looking at myself I don't feel that is it. I don't feel I sabotage any relationship I have ever been in. I think the reason I have yet to find a relationship work is because I have an issue being "best" friends with my girlfriend or they have an issue being best friends with me.
I truly feel the person I will finally meet and fall truly in love with will understand what I do, if not always why I do it, and I will understand what she does. It is not that we need to reveal everything to each other, it is that we need to understand there are something's in our lives that we will just not understand about each other and we will accept and love each other for those things.
P.S. I have checked this for spelling but not grammar so may have some mistakes in it.
This is the blog you write after you may have had one too many and you get a little maudlin.
My Season Three Girlfriend.
I have had a few girlfriends in the four years I have lived here. I have had two that we actually acknowledged we were "boyfriend and girlfriend" since moving here. That is not a lot.
Every so often you meet a girl that is sexy, cool, and fun to hang around. But you have a girlfriend and she has a boyfriend. Then one of you break up and you look at the other in a more romantic light knowing it cannot work. Then you find someone new and the other is single. Once again it doesn't work out.
Then finally in season three of the series you both find yourself single. Yet the match isn't quite there yet.
Yes I watch too much TV and read too many stories where the guy gets the girl and then love each other ever after. I have become much more cynical and realize the world doesn't work like that. It still doesn't help me from keeping on hoping I will meet that girl.
I have had nights like that and it makes me sad when I go home. I feel a connection to someone and when I get home I realize it is all in my mind and I make too big of a deal out of a friendship. There are people I hang out that I would love to see a friendship turn into a relationship and find out if they are at last the person I have been looking for my whole life. But time and time again I find out we are best friends, not a romantic pairing.
It is hard and even at age 31 I find myself still in the same emotional turmoil as when I was 16. Is that an indicator that I have never grown up? And if growing up to "settle" for someone means the loss of fun and spontaneity that I will sometimes have is it worth it?
I do not feel grown up. I play and I play hard. Does growing up and settling down mean an end to all play? Is that why I sabotage my own relationships?
Looking at myself I don't feel that is it. I don't feel I sabotage any relationship I have ever been in. I think the reason I have yet to find a relationship work is because I have an issue being "best" friends with my girlfriend or they have an issue being best friends with me.
I truly feel the person I will finally meet and fall truly in love with will understand what I do, if not always why I do it, and I will understand what she does. It is not that we need to reveal everything to each other, it is that we need to understand there are something's in our lives that we will just not understand about each other and we will accept and love each other for those things.
P.S. I have checked this for spelling but not grammar so may have some mistakes in it.
Awww... Thom. You need hugs. Come visit us soon.
Posted by Celtic | 4:11 PM