You just lost.

This leads me into thinking about thinking. You ever try hard to forget about something you don't want to remember or think about? And you find that all you can think about is that thing? That is where I am at right now. I know the way I stop thinking about that thing is to get myself busy, distracted, let time pass, and basically just stop being such a whiny little bitch. But I am also torn, what if I don't want to stop thinking about that thing? (And really it is an enjoyable memory, just one that is ... um, one I should forget.)

I think, as I write this, I need to stop worry about trying to forget it and make a decision on how to handle and face it. But of course what I want and what I should do are completely two different things. I think I will give it another week to think about how I should handle my (oh so very minor) dilemma and spend this time not trying to figure out how to forget it, because that just isn't happening, but what I will do about it.